I’m a very competitive person. I like to win, probably too much for my own good. I blame my male cousins for this competitive side I developed.
Do you have the Monica Syndrome?
I grew up in the countryside, outside of Rome, in a small town. I lived very close to my cousins, in fact, so close that every afternoon I walked up to their door and we all played soccer or video games together.
If you have any male cousins or brothers you know they usually are sore losers and they won’t accept defeat, especially if it’s a girl who’s winning!
I spent so much time playing with them and discussing who had cheated or not that I became just like them. I don’t mean a sore loser, I just wanted to win!
Recently, I started watching Friends from the very first episode and the more I watch it, the more I realize that I feel exactly like Monica does! I like to win. It’s that simple.
Some people might say there must be some underlying issue in my subconscious that makes you think you have to be the best at everything, but I think I mostly want to win because when you try your hardest and your best at something you simply want to be recognized for your hard work.
I know it doesn’t always work that way. Especially in real life. So many factors come into play. I experienced it myself just a couple of weeks ago. I really did give everything I could and I didn’t get the perfect score I was aiming at. I was so disappointed and honestly, I still am, but all I can do now is take that experience and try to do even better next time.
Maybe I should also take it easy and try to move on from the Monica Syndrome.
haha yeah, who are we kidding??